As she waited, she felt a familiar pain – a familiar feeling, it seemed her childhood nightmare returned – only this time her little yellow blankie was there, to comfort her and to tell her it was okay. Someone was there to hold her and to turn on Tom & Jerry.
Her husband and Heavenly Father were there, by her side. Little yellow blankie was her comforter; it was her Heavenly Father, even as a child. She was never alone. Her husband held her and he loved her. He took her hand in his and assured her that no matter the outcome, he would be there – for eternity.
She had nothing to fear. Death was already overcome, not by her; but her savior. Death is only the beginning, the awakening into a new life. This is the promise he made. Her hope was in him, she had nothing to fear. Her dear, sweet husband was her eternal companion; they wouldn’t be apart for very long.
“The test results”, the doctor said, “I’m afraid it’s positive. It is a malignant tumor. We will start treatment right away.”
She didn’t want to go through the pain of Chemotherapy again – she couldn’t bear the idea of her husband watching her go through the torment, she loved him too much. She was given several options; treatment would only delay the inevitable. She opted out. Not to spare herself, but her precious husband. She could take the pain; No, not him. She couldn’t put him through that. She thought of her parents and how much they loved her, how much they endured when she was young. No, she wouldn’t put him through that. She would be fine, God was with her. She did it once, she could do it again.
Her husband squeezed her hand as the doctor spoke. She looked over to him and met his eyes; they slowly smiled at each other. The bond they had was so strong – no man could ever take it or Death separate. Their love was God’s love; manifested in each other. A bond so powerful, nothing could ever break it. She squeezed his hand and they spoke, one word. The word that was their bond, the foundation – God’s promise of forever; the journey they would walk forever more –
He pulled her to his chest. Held her under his arm, to protect her, to love her. His wife. Not from his head to rule over him nor his feet to be trodden down by him, but his rib. Close to his heart – his equal. His protection and his love. This promise he made. Today, Tomorrow until Forever. They would share an eternity. By no means was this verdict one of Death. No, but one of life, an everlasting life. There is no Death – Christ overcame so we didn’t have too. He took the sting, the pain of Death for us. No, this was only the beginning. The journey Together. Through God, they would overcome any obstacle, any doubt. They would walk together.
Neither would be alone. They became united – two became one, through God. Let no man put asunder what God has bound. Not even Death.
She wasn’t afraid. It was okay. Her life was complete. Her tender, loving Heavenly Father blessed her; he made all things right, good and true. He healed her and he loved her. She found what she as looking for; he filled the hole in her heart. He changed her into something beautiful; as her husband told her many times, she bloomed into the prettiest flower and most precious of all! She was a daughter in her father’s kingdom. Through is his love and tender mercies, she was made new and given a new life and a new hope. Her father knew the desires of her and he made it so.
She was the only member of her faith in her family. Her wish, that one day they would come to the same knowledge. They would become members and sealed together. Over the years with God, she was given her wish; she was to be sealed with her dad, mom, brother and sister. She loved them with all heart. They performed temple work together. Strange her journey began this way and her beginning – Yes, she was ready. Her life was complete. She was ready to waken and to live with her Father in heaven once again. Her husband and her family with her. This was the promise he made.
Time seemed to fly by. It was quick. She spent her last few months with her precious family. She could sense the time was close, so she asked her husband to let these moments be private. She wanted her family to remember life, not this. To remember how much she loved them, how she would always love them, to remember what will be again, not this earthly awakening.
He stayed with her and they talked about their new beginning. They laughed and they loved. He held her hand, whispered how much he loved her and how he was proud of her – to call her his wife – how she was the most amazing critter he had ever seen, his lil bunny – the petite brunette with green eyes. He loved her nose, it suited her perfectly. He told her many times throughout their marriage, that he was glad she didn’t ruin it with surgery because any other nose couldn’t nuzzle like hers – any other nose wouldn’t be as sweet. A tear rolled down his cheek, he would miss her, but it was okay. Seeing his tear, she touched it with her finger and kissed it, then pressed her finger to his lips, speaking very softly she told him,
“I love you, so very much,” she took a deep breath and a tear fell from her eyes, “I have thanked Heavenly Father every day for you and your love. I am so proud to be your wife. The patience and understanding; how you never gave up on me. With all my faults, you loved me anyway. Even when I didn’t deserve it”, she gently touched his face and smiled”, you better not find another woman; I’ll come back and haunt you! She teased and they both laughed.
“Only you lil bunny, only you,” he gently nuzzled her nose with his.
This simple gesture was theirs. It spoke volumes. It told the love they felt in their hearts, it told their story. Their life journey together and their beginning; it wasn’t easy for them. By the world’s standards, they should have never made it; their walked should have ended long ago. I agree; he probably married the wrong woman, by this standard. But, by Heavenly Father’s standard they were exactly what they needed for each other (and Heavenly Father already knew this). The patience he had for her – the unwavering love – could only be given by the hand of Heavenly Father himself. Taurus and Leo just don’t match, but they beat the odds. They could do anything – the triangle of God. They loved more deeply, they cared so strongly – nothing could take that from them – nothing. Heavenly Father let them experience real love. He loved them so much, he wanted to give each of them someone who would love and would guide and teach.
He sent her husband to her, but Heavenly Father also knew that her husband needed her just as much. They learned from each other and they complemented each other. Most of all they have this unwavering trust and honesty. The real beauty is — their marriage is forever and it was given by Heavenly Father.
He held her for a few moments more and softly kissed her, somehow knowing she didn’t have much time. She took his hand and said,
“You have taught me so much, you stood by me – gave me strength I didn’t know I had; All Through Our Father love. You’re a wonderful teacher. You let me be as clingy as I needed, you let me lean on you – you’re my best friend. You have shown me what it was meant to be, how love really is. You have my heart always. When I said “I will, I meant forever,” she closed her and whispered, “I’ll be waiting for you. I love you.” – She was gone.
Her last moments were peaceful. Full of love and Heavenly Father’s tender mercies. Death isn’t easy, to watch the person you loved more deeply than anyone else passes on, but Death is not an end, by no means just a new beginning. They understood that, it wasn’t goodbye, just “see you later”, or “We’ll see each other soon”. He knew that he would see her again, maybe for what seems like a long time for him, but for her it would only be a matter of minutes until they were reunited. Yes, this is the promise he made. Their father could never break a promise.
He sat there with her, tears rolling down his face. He loved her so much; he would miss her smile and her laugh. He would miss their late night talks about anything and everything – about nothing, just talking – dreams and hopes – she listened to him, she supported him. Those moments of nothing, meant more to him than so many something’s. With all his crazy ideas and building projects, she listened to him and she supported him. She let him lean on her, let him share his heart. Something he never had until her. She completed his very being. He held her hand, touched her face and nuzzled her nose – that, he would miss the most. Her bunny nose – her defining feature and he loved it.
His precious wife; they walked this path together. They came through the hardships and the trials, never – not once giving up on each other. As he sat there, he remembered their walk. From the first day until now; he watched her as she bloomed in the prettiest flower he’d ever seen. Out of all the flowers, she was by far the most special. She gave him strength and the courage.
The funeral arrangements were made rather quickly. Her wish was to be buried underneath a cherry blossom tree with white lilies, but most importantly, she wanted to be buried in her own back yard. He made sure her wish was carried out. Her family and friends were there, it was a celebration of life, not death.
As his time soon approached, age 72, just 5 years later; he couldn’t wait to see her – to nuzzle her nose – to see her smile. He loved her more deeply than one man should be allowed. It should have always been her, but then again, it always was.
Two flowers were placed, one white lily and one marigold; their favorite flowers. He joined his lil bunny; back to where it began.
Man was created by the dust of the earth and woman by the rib of man –
Not his head to rule over him
Nor his feet to be trodden down by him
But his rib; close to his heart and at his side – his arm to wrap around her with his love and protection.
She was there waiting for him – her bunny nose and her smile – She warmed his heart, as only she could. To him, she was his everything and he missed her so much. Now, he would never be without her again. He couldn’t wait to hold her, to nuzzle her nose – he met her embrace and they loved, as promised.
– A Journey into the Beginning –